Today was good....

Today was good.Called in sick which is something I rarely do.Felt nice and mischevious about it too.Listening to Jimmy Eat World right now.It's funny cause it's such a trendy album for me to buy but the music is really fun and catchy nonetheless.Who cares about all that cool bullshit anyway??? All that matters is if the music scoots your caboose or not!!! Well my caboose ate a lot today and generally did a whole lot of nothing.I did come to one very welcome conclusion about my work life though--I'm not going to do anything I don't want to based on social or monetary pressures.As of late I have been feeling very compressed by the weight of all of my bills and the fact that I don't make much money in my job and it is something that I don't really agree with anyway.Now I know that one cannot live off of ideals and eat their ethics for breakfast, but you just know when something doesn't feel right in your soul. I have been out of balance because of this--yet, it is not worth going to nursing school so I can make more money and do another job that my heart's really not in.So the conclusion for the moment is to stick with what works--and build on it slowly.This entails taking some courses of interest at the local community college and maybe along the way it will spurr some ideas for me.Just to keep everything moving along and not too ruttish.That is not what I wish my life to be.If I must be poor(cause this god-forsaken town sure isn't paying), then at least let my mind not atrophy in the process. I haven't met many motivated individuals in this town.I have a few friends who I consider precious jewels amidst a bunch of dullards here--but few and far between.It's very different transitioning from a university town to a retirement/surfing community.Strange combo I know.You either get Myrtle on the ventilator, or Shane High as a kite--oh and let's not forget, 50 year old Rhonda who dances to classic rock at the Tav.That's about all there is to it folks.And the art community is so old and rich and uptight.It's not really about art--it's just politics.Whah, whah--I know...stop my whining--but sometimes you just have to go on a little in order to exorcise those demons:):):). Put up some Halloween decorations tonight.Love to have the ghosts and the goblins and the candy-corn candles out.It just brings such a fun, magical air to the house.I can definitely smell fall in the air now.It will still take more time, but it's on it's way.Can't wait for the leaves to start rustling and the quiet walks at night.The porch is already a more pleasant place to reside upon.I want to make pumpkin pie and carve some jack-o-lanterns with K. It's quite the tradition now.There are going to be some shows to go to and a friend is having a party.Oh--I get to paint my face something crazy:):)WHEEEEEEE!!!